____tear my heart open; i sew myself shut

Thursday, April 28, 2005

bloody hell! what is WRONG with you.YES YOU! -too bad if you don't know who you are.
can't you JUST study and KEEP YOUR GRADES UP! i mean like its NOT THAT HARD RIGHT!
what in the world is a 3/30 FOR MATH! do WE have to knock you brain into place?! don't you even have an responsibility. we're yelling around the house all cause of YOU! can't you tell?! so why don't you just pull up your sock AND WE DONT HAVE TO FIGHT. just do your work study INSTEAD of watching TV the whole darn DAY. you think life is that easy?!

everythings provided. we clean up after you. money is there. the house is there. food is there.

don't you even have any sense of gratitude in you?! i guess you won't even realise im talking about YOU! since you rarely come to my blog anyway. so here i am venting out CIVILISLY since i am trying to get hold of myself. like WHATEVER. just bloody buck up and change you're attitude. we've been reminding you a million times already. FINE. you can be that way. no one can every change you stupid attitude. no use giving you preachy talks. why? cause you won't even listen. you wont even change. cause you just too stubborn and refuse to listen. fine. i can't talk to you cause of the past. the year of hatred burning in us everyday. the fights the anger the crying the screaming. the words that stung my heart and left a scar. sighs.

i'm going to have a talk with you tomorrow. i pray that God's gonna help it go smoothly. i'm gonna pray that you're gonna listen. hope everything goes well. sigh.

{ tear my heart open }
11:45 pm